Peace, be still

"We are apt to imagine that Jesus Christ constrains us, and we obey Him, He will lead us to great success. We must never put our dreams of success as God's purpose for us; His purpose may be exactly the opposite. We have an idea that God is leading us to a particular end, a desired goal; He is not. The question of getting to a particular end is a mere incident. What we call the process, God calls the end.
What is my dream of God's purpose? His purpose is that I depend on Him and on His power now. If I can stay in the middle of the turmoil calm and unperplexed, that is the end of the purpose of God. God is not working towards a particular finish; His end is the process -- that I see Him walking on the waves, no shore in sight, no success, no goal, just the absolute certainty that it is all right because I see Him walking on the sea. It is the process, not the end, which is glorifying to God.
God's training is for now, not presently. His purpose is for this minute, not for something in the future. We have nothing to do with the afterwards of obedience; we get wrong when we think of the afterward. What men call training and preparation, God calls the end." - My Utmost For His Highest, July 28

Way to stab me in the heart, God. As I was falling apart worried over my future and letting myself become overwhelmed with all the things I have to accomplish for my life, You threw this at me and told me "Peace, be still. Watch the garden grow." He has told me what I am intended for in my life; but now He has told me to wait and be still. I want to rush out and find studio space and get started with my life's ministry but now I realize all too suddenly that it's better to sit back and listen to the Gardener before I start planting on my own without His direction.
Okay, Abba, I'm taking this one day at a time. One hour at a time. I have come to realize that this process -- this training You're putting me through -- is my purpose. This is your ministry. Thank you.